a new blog

One of my goals this year was to create a photography blog for myself. I wanted a place that was only my photography work on a blog, something separate from my personal blog. The main reason for this was because I was, and still am, hoping to make photography a second career, especially during the summers. I wanted a blog only for photos so that it would be more professional.

So I created this photography site.

And now I'm going back and forth on this idea.

The pros are that it keeps it professional looking- career separate from personal life. It also gave me the chance to work with another site instead of blogger. For the photography blog I went with wordpress. I honestly wanted to see how/if it would differ from blogger. And trust me, it is!

The deltas are that while I was hoping the new site would be easier and even more fun to manage, it hasn't been. Maybe I've been on blogger for too long, so learning something new has just been challenging, but I also feel like wordpress is just all around more difficult than blogger. I also don't know how I feel about separating the areas of my life now. I'm sure that if I actually am able to start a 2nd career from this, I will appreciate and enjoy the new space, but for now I just feel like I am taking away from this blog. I've also read so many blog posts on how to make your blog a successful/better site and most of the suggestions include creating a primary theme for your blog. In other words, figure out what you want your blog to be mainly about and stick with that instead of spreading yourself thin and making it about all sorts of things, which is what I have been doing. So does this mean that I want my main theme to be photography on my personal blog (a/k/a here)? Or do I want it to just be about my life, and therefore including professional photos would take away from the central theme?

So many silly thoughts.

Do any of you have advice? 

Or maybe if you are a reader of this blog, tell me if you would prefer to see photoshoots that I take here on the personal blog, or would you prefer that to be on another site?
I need help here people!

-kel

the filler friend (venting post...dont read unless you can handle that!!!)

Throughout my life (and especially more recently) I feel like I am the "filler friend". The friend/person that people fill in their time with until something better comes along. Not to say that I think I'm deserving of this...I happen to think I am fun and a good friend, which makes the whole situation even more confusing and frustrating. However, when it comes to my friendship, people only seem to want it when they have too much lonely or down time that needs to be taken.

I'm that filler.

Most of my recently made girl friends have all used me as this...whether they meant to or not. They're single and want to have fun and are in desperate need of girl friends and girl time. We bond, become close friends, they find a boy and then all of a sudden "bye filler friend!" No warning, no weening, just tossed aside like yesterdays news.

I understand how girls work, after all, I am one. But it annoys me to no end when girls that I consider close (if not best) friends disappear after a boy comes into their lives. It makes me feel worthless and frankly, it hurts like hell. I do get that girls are just like this....they meet a boy and thats all they can think about- I completely get this (I'm quite boy crazy myself). What pisses me off is the fact that they dont schedule me in, they dont call me to hang out, or they leave after an hour of hanging out because they haven't seen their boy in at least a day... wow, a day. Try a week.

Ok, maybe I'm jealous.... we girls do tend to pick our guys over our friends in the beginning (although with my jax gal friends it seems there's no end to the beginning-once they leave, they leave for good). And I'll admit that I have done this. I'm guilty, you caught me. I've picked the guy over friends, but I've learned. I stopped. Everyone else hasn't...and it's not as if this is one particular friend I am referring to, it's a handful. It almost makes me feel like there's something wrong with me.... but I digress.

So girls pick their boy over their friends, I get that. But I'm SOL in that way and then the boy picks his friends over me. So I get stuck in the middle of.....well I guess I'm having a date night with myself....again.

So yea, I'm jealous because I'm never the first one people want to hang out with....the filler friend is the option, not the priority.



I didn't write this for a pity party or to call anyone out. Nor did I want to make anyone feel badly. I'm just so sick of not having these girl friends or boyfriend to turn to that I had to use the internet as a medium to get out (okay, maybe I am a bit pathetic...). I don't want any I'm so sorry or I feel so bad for you. I hate those.... In fact I don't think I want any comments at all. I just want someone to see me as the #1 priority.......





word.

k