Thursday, July 8, 2010

day 3 of 30 days of truth

Day 03 →? Something you have to forgive yourself for.

I constantly am beating myself up over things... It's as if I think I should've known the future and anticipated it, but I didn't so my mess up is unforgiveable. Like, I totally should have seen the my niece was going to spill that drink and ugh, why didn't I think ahead and bring an extra??? Then there's also the unwillingness to let stupid mistakes go..... ok I messed up and forgot to remind my boss about such and such phone call. It's a silly mistake, I should be able to let it go and move on, not beat myself up about how much of a mess up I can be. There's also my favorite....yea that whole Katrina thing....somehow that's totally my fault. Don't ask how or why, because I won't be able to answer that, but somehow my suckiness has lead to a national disaster. (Ok, the last is a bit of an extreme.....ha!)
The point is, I blame myself for a lot. And I also don't tend to go easy on myself, so when I mess up I drive myself crazy over it for way too long. It's kinda sad.
So something I have to forgive myself for is all those stupid mistakes that in the end don't matter. Life happens, we all screw up and it's not the end of the world.


Ella said...

I agree 100%.
Forgiveness is super important and unbelievably difficult some days, especially for yourself.

I had a hard time picking what my forgiveness would be for myself today.

Matt said...

Hmmm. I'm trying to think of what I will write about today. I know one thing for's way easier to forgive others than to forgive myself sometimes.

Karisse said...

Hey lovely! I gave you the sunshine award!

Courtney said...

All you can do it laugh at yourself! No one is perfect and everyone makes mistakes. I think that since you know your hard on yourself you can overcome it (with, you know lots of patience!) I may not be that extrememe but I can be the same way too.

Tracey said...

shit happens and then you die. Forgive and enjoy your life. It whizzes by. x

Glass*Plant said...

I am so hard on myself. I guess I am not the only one unfortunately. My yoga teacher always has the greatest quotes and stories... here's one that resonated with me...and maybe you too :)

"Reprogram yourself every minute of each day with thoughts that make you grow." - Paul Coehlo

Anna said...

I do that too. I play the "what if" game in my head constantly. And I have started crying when someone has said something negative to me, because I feel like I should have been able to prevent it in the first place.