I'm having one of those days.... maybe it's due to stress, but I think I can place blame elsewhere too. Today is not horrible, not by any means, BUT there are some things that have deeply upset or annoyed me.
Fact: I am over-sensative (and I am trying to work on this)
Fact: I get way emotional when stressed
Fact: Lately I've felt like the odd man out with a lot of things (and people)
Things I keep trying to tell myself:
-you are the magic wand (my high school bff's mom use to say this. it means basically you make the magic, you can cause good things to happen (or at least you can cause your mind to stay positive)
-big girls dont cry
-tomorrows another day
-theres light at the end of the tunnel (and dear Lord, please don't let it be a train!)
Things I still can't seem to stop being upset about (even though I am trying to get over them):
- not feeling included
- not getting included in a trip that I so badly wanted to be a part of (but got "cut out" so to speak) Maybe it's not so much the trip part that upsets me, maybe it's more of the fact that I feel like I've been "cut out" of this part of his life. I get boy trips, they should happen, but to go where I've been wanting to go with YOU for a longggg time to see your family with someone else?? boo
-not feeling like i have someone here in jax to constantly turn to and cry with (not that I've wanted to cry lately (minus today) but it would be nice having someone here that I could cry with, should I need to).
- not feeling wanted
I feel like a babbling baby. Sorry readers.
Just please pray for my sanity. :)
It will get better I know. And again, I'm not trying to pity party myself here, but if I didn't get it out here I would expload!!!